Wednesday, December 19, 2012

Aaron and Jayjay.

  I met him when I was 15. At the time I had troubles of my own and I wasn't in the best of spirits, but I didn't want to be alone that night so I went to a church dance with a friend. She ran around happily while i followed, immediately regretting coming. Then I saw him.

"Jessica, this is Aaron.". I remember squinting my eyes at him thinking "He's so skinny and timid looking."    
But I was nice and said hi and smiled the best I could. We chatted for a bit, but I could tell by the way he kept looking at my friend that he had a small crush on her. Great. Gonna be the third wheel. So I walked off to do my own thing.

About ten minutes later I ran into him again and he was alone. I hesitated, but went up to him and said "do you want to dance?" We danced and talked. I didn't realize it then, but from that point on my life had changed. It felt like we danced for forever talking endlessly about anything and everything. He told me about his friends and family, his problems with certain things and people, and shared with me some of his most darkest secrets. And I did the same. I don't know why we were so comfortable with each other after barely meeting fifteen minutes earlier, but it was something special. I could feel it. Later that night we texted and I knew at that moment I had found my best friend.

He was always there.

When I wanted to run away, he would always convince me not to, when I was sick and threw up he freaked out and told me what to eat and what to stay away from, and when I told him he was my best friend, he would say it back instantly. Our friendship was something we both needed and were extremely grateful for. He even took me to my junior prom. No matter what, we made a promise to always tell each other everything and when we needed help we would always be there. We had funny little inside jokes that made no sense but we still found them hilarious. We didn't have to do anything special to keep us entertained. If you would just put us in a room we could talk for forever. We both knew what we had was a true friendship.

It's hard and in some ways I'm still in the denial stage about all this. I still have his number saved in my phone hoping one day he'll text me and say "just kidding! I'm fine and I love you" I would give anything just to be able to hug and see him again. It's not goodbye forever. We will see each other again and we'll go right back to the way we were as if nothing happened.

Happy birthday best friend. You have no idea how much I miss you every single day. I hope you're looking down on all of us now being our guardian angel and relaxing in paradise where you belong. I can't wait to see your smile again. I love you.


  1. What a sweet boy, Jessica. I'm glad you went to the church dance that night to meet your best friend. And you're a sweet girl to dedicate this blog to Aaron.

  2. How lucky Aaron was to have a friend like you. Thank you for sharing your memories.